Real men don't cry... therefore I am no man.

I feel small. A fly on the wall. In insignificant nothing. There are moment when I just want to curl up into a ball and fade out of existence. Sometimes I just can't take it anymore. It is the scariest feeling in the world to tottally close control of you mind. It is said love maddens. If you only realize just how true that really is. This is taking every ounce of physical, emotional, and mental strength I have to keep a limited level on sanity. I am afraid that one day I just might lose it completely. If that happens put me somewhere where the walls are soft. Somewhere where I won't hurt myself or others.

I am sorry for being weak.

What should a man do when his mind is ready to explode? Lose it or relieve it.

Am I being to intraspective? Am I over analysis the situation? Am I taking this whole thing too seriously?